Hello everyone! This time, I am not sharing my interests, but rather a rather negative one. I feel suffocated, figuratively speaking, and I am actually crying while typing these words. Yesterday, my mother suddenly discovered that I was still awake at 2am, so she came into my room and started criticizing me. She said that my brain is not the brain of a human, but rather that of an animal, and that I am overly stupid because I do not know the most essential knowledge of life. She said that I should be ashamed of myself for not doing as she says. She said that I am not like a human, but rather that I am unusual. I am 22 years old, but she still treats me like a child. When it comes to my parents, the only word I can use to describe them is toxic. When I was in seventh grade, I did not have the academic results that they had anticipated. They constantly hurled toxic words at me. They even questioned my origins, asking me if I was a human or a pig. The loneliest times I have ever felt were when I was with my parents. They spoil me materially, but they do not tend to my emotional needs. They say that I should be grateful that they are such caring parents. When I try to express my thoughts and feelings, they dismiss them immediately. They never respect me. When I go out with them, they always force me to wear glasses because they believe that people will stare at my eyes and talk about my blindness behind my back. They are constantly skeptical about whether I will be able to find a job or get married in the future. They never believe in me or encourage me. They assume that I will not be able to be independent, but they do not teach me the necessary skills. They always picture me having to depend on my brother after they pass away. When they hear that I have won a prize in a competition or achieved something, they boast about it to everyone. However, the truth is that they do not appreciate me in private. They only say that I am immature and do not know how to follow through on my word. In my family, no one has ever stood up for me or supported me. Because of how my parents treat me, I became stubborn when I was younger. I have a rebellious attitude towards them. I argue with them or pretend not to hear them when they criticize me. I do what feels good to me and I put their words aside. also, I am learning new skills every day and reading books to improve myself. I plan to study abroad after graduation to escape their control.
6 responses to “my own sad story”
thank you for your empathy!
if your perrents say such things to you, they are the stupid ones for under estamating you.
thank you so much.
Hello, I’m really sorry to read this. It’s sad, how people can be. Wishing you all the best for the future, and hope that you can find what you need.
here, i am Pollyanna 🙂
At least, you have expressed yourself through writing, which is always a good thing to do, to help us make sense of the situation we’re in, and understand how it makes us feel, to take further action in order to improve our position.
Remember that at the end of the day, it is up to you what you do in life and how you manage it. What your parents say ordo, although hurtful, does not stop you from further learning and self-development, which you’re already doing.
Of course, there are people who care for you and who are ready to support you along the way, as they cherish you greatly 🙂 Whenever you feel overwhelmed or hurt by your parents, try and think back to these people.
PS. I am here, Yumi.